teh Inutile's Idle Prattles

I know that most people nowadays are liberated. Almost no one treats sex sacrosanct anymore. Proof is, people tend to talk about their sex lives casually. . . . and also, they tend to do it so casually that they can lightly compare it to breathing and eating already. It is as necessary as the basic needs of humans according to Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs . . .

. . . but despite that fact, can't these people give themselves some privacy and most importantly, "respect"? Is anyone really still familiar with that? Apparently, not.

The whole world doesn't need to know about that morsel of your life. No one needs to be unnecessarily judged just because they don't take some stuffs seriously; just because some people take things differently. So please, if you hate being judged by other people, stop being a tattletale! And to those people who contribute to the misery of other people . . . GET A LIFE! And start wishing that no one would treat you the way you treat other people! Karma is a bitch and it might come to bite you later. Good luck eluding.

OK, this is completely despicable. I know that falling for someone else despite being in a relationship ain't somethin' new nowadays. It has been happening since God knows when. Almost every single person in this globe had had experiences with such situation. Every minute, millions of people are having heartbreaks due to unfaithfulness. It's vexing but it's the truth. We have norms but we also have reality. No matter how much we want to lead an ideal life, it's just plain impossible. No matter how much we want to adhere to norms, it just AIN'T possible. It just ain't! It's a maxim.

But still . . . even if that is the fact, should we let loose morals run amok? Should we distort what's right and what's wrong just to justify something? Shouldn't we do otherwise? Shouldn't we compensate by trying to keep our morals intact? Unshaken? If you're gonna ask who I am to say what's wrong or what's right . . . this is my answer:

People are born with intelligence and common sense that is honed through time. Therefore, people can tell what's wrong or what's right depending on the situation—though that's not always the case; for if it is, I won't be making this entry. LOL.
There are complex situations, which is yeah . . . complicated (obviously) and are in need of pondering; but there are also simple ones, like Pamu and Kevin's damned quasi-love, which even a twelve-year old kid can understand . . . and judge.

Speaking of Kevin and Pamu . . . well, there's nothing wrong with being attracted to someone else. It's just attraction. It's like, look but don't touch. What's VERY wrong here is . . . Pamu nurtured her attraction into more like infatuation than love; and Kevin pursued a girl (yes, I'm calling Pamu a girl 'cause she's acting like she's 14) who's already taken, and to top it all off, HE DESTROYED A RELATIONSHIP. I don't understand why people keep on blaming Pamu alone, when in fact, both of them are at fault—especially Kevin. If he did not pursue Pamu, would she have liked him in the very first place? It's Pamu's choice to fall in love and break up with Renz, but if Kevin didn't do what he did, would she have fallen for him helplessly that she became blinkered? Enough to break a good man's heart ON AIR? Pamu could have given his boyfriend consideration, knowing that she's cheated on him and everybody knows about it already. Give the guy a goddamn break!

People are prejudiced just because Kevin is good-looking. Go on and deny what you see me say; but the truth will remain unscathed and undistorted. People are biased. I am not judging Pamu nor Kevin, I don't even hate them. What I hate is what they did. People commit mistakes and they don't need to be criticized for it. What needs to be criticized is what they have done, which they own. It's normal to fall in love; to leave your current lover for a better one. That's one of the cycles of love. Horrid and ugly but true. That's the savagery behind the face of love. The Savage Garden. Like what I said before . . .

"Love won’t necessarily come in a very beautiful form for sometimes, it could be ugly. You just have to shape it up so it could become beautiful."

I just hope she won't regret what she did. I am wishing for her happiness with Kevin—even though it appeared to me that she didn't really think about it properly and that she left her previous boyfriend just because Kevin is handsome. You can't really blame me for thinking that way. 'Cause when Seichi tried to pursue Pamu, she flat-out rejected him. No second thoughts. She told him she already have a boyfriend. I salute her for that. But here comes Kevin and she's already all over him. Where's the boyfriend now? Out the window? It's funny. it's too funny it makes me cringe.

Some time ago, the Philippine Nursing Licensure Examination result just came out—finally, after the long, excruciating and bloody vexing wait. I cannot say that I am totally happy about the result tho I have passed and ranked 17th nationwide. It's because two of my boy friends didn't make it. I feel happy for myself but I can't really say that I am completely happy because sadness overcomes me easily.

Victory ain't as sweet when comrades who aided to pave my way towards this sweetness have fallen.

I wish I could turn back time . . . give them more attention during reviews. Maybe if I had forked up extra effort, they would have passed as well; topped the boards even.

Haaa . . .

Cheers, chaps.
Wish my boys luck.

To a kid born in 1991 or earlier, have you ever contemplated or even pictured 2012 when you were 12?
I have not. LOL. I wasn't so creative and contemplative, was I? Well anyway, this transition has made me remember those days when I was so carefree as a child. I really miss those good ol' days. Good good 'ol days. :3

In 2002, I registered at the Genso Suiko Gaiden forum, which I often visited. I exchanged ideas with other forum members. Their opinions and the gens I have been imparted with aided me to bring "ME" to pass. A big morsel of my intellect and wisdom's foundation was delivered by this place. I learned how to riposte and to reproach—to never back down and to stand for what I believe.

During those times, anime was at its aesthetic peak—flourishing. This was also the peak of my jonesing and pining for the shows I liked so much. I learned to ponder, concoct and extend my opinions to others. It became one of the cells comprising the every tissue of my ever evolving philosophy.

I was also drowning myself in liquid sounds back then—IMPOSIBLE by Rivermaya; TRASH and BEAUTIFUL ONES by Suede, etc. I remember having only a few songs in a single playlist back then; but now, I have more than a thousand, which I can hardly squeeze into a 4GB flash disk.

I came to appreciate music, enjoy it and relate to it. Bit by bit, I became a very fastidious and finicky listener—thanks to Suede. LOL.
I enjoyed an aesthetically lopsided music more than those overrated contemporary music played endlessly over the radio. Old school music suited my palate very much contrary to contemporary music, which took off the roof of my mouth.

I think this moment is one of those time blocks in my life that held great meaning and significance for it brought forth felicity and most especially, growth.

I really wish I could go back to those times, re-experience them again and learn to appreciate them even more than I already did. It's too bad that I couldn't turn back time. If I had one wish? I'd consider this as an option.

FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU! I wanna tear my guts out! My friggin' God! My beloved Sveinn! My beloved MacBook!

There was no trace of water surge inside the laptop tho there were 1-2 drops on the surface of the battery. I still didn't turn it on just to be sure; but my Mum and Dad turned it on 10 hours after the horrid incident. Of course, my Dad complained that it wouldn't turn on; indicating that some water got inside my platform somehow. I just really hope it didn't cause any serious damage, or none at all if The Smiter permits. Sighhh …

I really hope it will be rampaging the interwebs some time soon again. Accidental damages aren't covered by warranty after all.

I love you, my beloved Sveinn. I will shed tears for you every single night until you come back to Mummy. *sniffs*